Be FREE

It has been a pretty hectic day for me at work. Tomorrow I’ll be going over to another team to help out with some other stuff. I guess I feel better now getting to know new people. In fact, I do look forward to it. Moreover, the team tomorrow is led by an angmoh manager. hohoho. (: 

Anyway, I heard from my sister that someone accidentally bumped into my ah ma and she had a bad fall. She fractured her bone and likely to be hospitalized. The moment I got the news, I literally teared. Super heart pain, super heart sour.. 

God, please bless and protect her. Please heal her. Please take away her pain and discomfort. God, please please please don’t let anything happen to her or my family or my love ones. Especially when im not around them now! God please watch over them. :(

Sigh..Every time I want to enjoy my wifi time at my hostel’s common area, it is as good as fighting a war. My heart rate is literally going UP and down and then UP again non-stop!!! ALL BECAUSE OF THAT PET CAT THAT IS ALWAYS ROAMING AROUND LIKA BOSS!!!!! AHHHHH!! I really cannot take it. 

I always had to go up and rest earlier because I had enough of having to be aware and alert of where that cat is! I tell you..its really worse than taking a roller coaster. Seriously……….

Anyhow, its finally friday and end of week 1 of work for me! 7 more to go!! And soon I will be home! :D Missing everybody who misses me in Singapore.. (: I am doing fine and getting better each day. Thank you for all the prayers! (:

Started work earlier today due to some training day. I tell you…. Sitting in the same room for nearly 10 hours listening to “difficult to digest” accent and content is no joke. I was so brain dead when I finally ended work.

Oh well, today my team reserved a private room in one of the famous restaurants in Shanghai for lunch. So I got a treat la. A lot a lot A LOT of food. Its crazy! Anyhow, I’m still not very used to heavy flavors here. I think I enjoy the street food better than those atas atas restaurants.

So far, everything is still going alright for me. Thank you all who prayed and are praying for me. :) I am really missing home like mad. In fact, I did cry on my first night. :( But the first night when I arrived was really horrible la. I miss all my awesome comfort friends too! Now that I’m here, I really learn to reflect on every single one of your “goodness” in the friendships. Well, I am blessed to have all of you! :D

First day of work

These are my flight details! Will be departing from Terminal 2. Pray for journey mercy yo! :D

Hong Kong Airlines
Flight HX754:
Depart Singapore Changi Apt, SG (SIN)12-May-12 (Sat) 07:40
Arrive Hong Kong International Apt, HK (HKG)12-May-12 (Sat) 11:25
Flight Time 03hr 45min | EconomyAircraftBoeing 737-800Stopsnonstop

Hong Kong Airlines
Flight HX238
Depart Hong Kong International Apt, HK (HKG)12-May-12 (Sat) 15:25
ArriveShanghai Hongqiao Apt, CN (SHA)12-May-12 (Sat) 17:45
Flight Time 02hr 20min | EconomyAircraftAirbus Industrie A330-200Stopsnonstop

9th July (Returning back to Singapore):

Hong Kong Airlines
Flight HX235 
Depart Shanghai Pu Dong Apt, CN (PVG)09-Jul-12 (Mon) 08:10
Arrive Hong Kong International Apt, HK (HKG)09-Jul-12 (Mon) 10:50
Flight Time02hr 40min | EconomyAircraftAirbus Industrie A330-200Stopsnonstop

Hong Kong Airlines
FlightHX753   
DepartHong Kong International Apt, HK (HKG)09-Jul-12 (Mon) 21:30
ArriveSingapore Changi Apt, SG (SIN)10-Jul-12 (Tue) 01:30
Flight Time04hr 00min | EconomyAircraftBoeing 737-800Stopsnonstop

Lord, You used what matters to me the most to remind me of Your love for me. You made me discover and experience Your love all over again. You triggered my emotions out of my love for my mother. There are no words that could express or describe that “feeling”. But Lord, I’m thankful and You caused me to want to dig even deeper than ever. I’m ready for the ride of my life. Lord, take me away. I want to be so lost in Your presence and be so drunk in Your love.

Redeem me, redeem the elise that I used to be. 

What a great word shared by Dr. AR Bernard during leaders meeting today. The right word for the right season of my life. Before that, as Cynthia shared about God breathing new life into us during worship, I was already greatly impacted. But Dr. ARB’s word reconfirmed and reassured me further.

I have been struggling so much within myself. What now, what’s next, can I still do it? Have I lost the fire, is it possible to regain that passion, am I in the wrong place at the wrong time? I was really uncertain and vexed about it. Most importantly, I felt that I was not up for it because everything seems so unfamiliar to me now and I thought I have lost the heart and have no idea how to regain that. 

Today’s word really encouraged me to look to God all over again. Just Him alone. I am determined and desperate to find back the passion and heart for it again. I want to be a good steward of whatever that God has placed in my life. Because I want to honor Him, I want to do it right and well. His will be done, not mine. His kingdom, not mine. 

God..redeem me. Redeem that calling. Redeem that passion. Redeem that heart. Help me to go deeper. Depth. Substance.

Where You go i’ll go, Where You stay i’ll stay, When You move i’ll move, i will follow You.
Who You love i’ll love, How You serve i’ll serve, If this life i lose, i will follow You. - Chris Tomlin

I Have Nothing by Whitney Houston

Share my life,
Take me for what I am.
‘Cause I’ll never change
All my colors for you.

Take my love,
I’ll never ask for too much,
Just all that you are
And everything that you do.

I don’t really need to look
Very much further/farther,
I don’t want to have to go
Where you don’t follow.
I will hold it back again,
This passion inside.
Can’t run from myself,
There’s nowhere to hide.
(Your love I’ll remember forever.)

Don’t make me close one more door,
I don’t want to hurt anymore.
Stay in my arms if you dare,
Or must I imagine you there.
Don’t walk away from me.
(No, don’t walk away from me. Don’t you dare walk away from me.)
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don’t have you, you (you, you, you./If I don’t have you, oh, oo.)

You see through,
Right to the heart of me.
You break down my walls
With the strength of your love.

I never knew
Love like I’ve known it with you.
Will a memory survive,
One I can hold on to?

I don’t really need to look
Very much further/farther,
I don’t want to have to go
Where you don’t follow.
I will hold it back again,
This passion inside.
Can’t run from myself,
There’s nowhere to hide.
(Your love I’ll remember forever.)

Will be flying off to Shanghai in one week’s time. Honestly, I’m not fully prepared for it. I have never been away from my family for more than 2 weeks. Moreover, this time round is for work. I totally detest work life. Absolute nono, however internship is compulsory. I always have a lot of fears and insecurities regarding work life….meeting people, working in unfamiliar environment, working on projects that I have LOW knowledge and expertise about, people’s views and opinions on me etc. 

But well, no turning back man.. And I will definitely have to go through it. Friends, keep me in your prayers k? Pray for favor, favor, favor…grace, grace, grace…wisdom, wisdom, wisdom. (: Everything will be alright. God is with me.

May Your joy be the strength of my heart for the 2 months.

I really feel like I’m in the valley of dry bones in this season.
Everything is just dry to me. And I literally meant everything.
I have no idea what has gotten into me and I definitely do not enjoy this phase.
But…
I know I cannot carry on like this. I need to find back that little spark in my relationship with God again. No need fire, just a little spark will do.
Out of the fear of God, I cannot give up.
I need to return to my hiding place.

God…let me draw near to You again.

So many things to do, so little time.

Flying off to Shanghai on 5th May early morning but….

- Exams NOT over

- Visa NOT done

- Accommodation NOT settled

- Buying of proper bag and clothes for work NOT done

Time is sooo tight!! O.O